The Couch

Such a long time it has been since this has been touched. Hoping this is the start of a renewed commitment of writing and sharing.

I am stuck on the couch barely able to talk and my mind has no where to go but everywhere. What needs to be done, when to get it done, and how to keep everything in line. Underlying all of this is control. Control, the mindset of needing to directly influence every decision and situation involving oneself and often others' as well. That is how I define this word of control. Control is hard to give up when so much is at stake; work, finances, relationships etc. Sitting on this couch I am out of control. I can only do so much of my own ability. I must submit and give up to God that which I cannot do. God will be the one to get the credit. The selfish nature wants the control and praise to feed itself, but true reliance is needed to the Bread of Life (John 6:35). I must do my part, but I have to let God do his. With being sick proper fluid and food are important in recovery. In faith, reliance on God and trust in His control creates the need to be properly fed, through prayer and Scripture.

Are you having your daily bread? Where must you let go, and let God?

Life-Altering Weekend

What a crazy and awesome weekend! I knew it would be a good one but didn't know it would turn out as it did.

First off was the pure joy and excitement of my best friend getting married! It was great seeing him and be able to be right beside him with all of the final wedding preperations as well as the wedding itself. I am so proud to know him and call him my best friend, what a great example of a godly man. It was a blast getting to know his friends in the bridal party and growing so close with them so quickly (if you ever need somewhere to crash in Minnesota you know who to call). The wedding itself was gorgeous, and seeing how happy the bride and groom were as well as their love for each other brought tears to my eyes. This will not be the only time thos happens but that will come later. The reception was loads of fun. I am not a dancer nor have I ever claimed to be one but I was dancing the entire night. It was such a happy occasion I couldn't resist.

The drive home the next day was sure tiring but one full of thought and prayer. I have found a renewed joy in prayer, and doing so constantly. God is opening my eyes to so many things personally as well as opportunities. I am so thankful for all of His provisions.

My weekend ended just as awesome as it started and remained. It was the final official gathering of the season. The sun was shining and the parents and kids had a very entertaining soccer game before enjoying a picnic. It was great seeing them again as I had not done so in a few days. They all have become adopted little sisters to me. I was not planning on this when the season started but I'm glad it did. God does amazing things. Coming home afterwards I teared up again in joy (yes this is the second, two days in a row) because of how blessed I am to have coached them.

God is showing me awesome things and teaching me a lot lately. I cannot wait to see what he has in store for me next!

Growth

In a world of catchy one-liners they are everywhere. Today I saw one regarding growth and struck close to where I am right now. The quote went something like "you can't grow while standing still".  A plant doesn't stay the same while growing, it moves and develops. As I grow I know that I cannot stay the same. Things need to change and evolve constantly as I look to improve myself and become the man I am supposed to be and God has planned out for me.

I am the branch and Christ is the vine, I need to constantly be connected to the vine to receive my nourishment for growth.

I challenge you to look for the places in your life where you are growing or need to grow.

Brothers In Unity (Psalm 133)

One of the greatest days for some can be the saddest for others, for the same reason. Last night I helped my closest friend pack and carry the last of his things to his car as he was preparing to leave college and head home to his family, fiancee, and pastoral internship. His family and fiancee were definitely excited as it meant he would be returning home and would be able to see him on a regular basis, if not daily. I on the other hand would get to see him in person even less, though thanks to technology and the wonders of Skype I will hopefully be able to see him (albeit on a computer screen) fairly regularly.  Although I may not have physically shed a tear...ok maybe just one, it is saddening to see him go. Looking back over the last three years I never thought we would end up this close nor have him touch my life the way he has.

Walking along our freshman floor, the person now I am closest too more than any other is the least likely person I would have thought so then. We were quite opposite in many ways. I was super small, he was ripped and all muscle. He woke up early and went to bed early while I favor more of a stay up somewhat late and sleep in type of schedule. He was really neat and I...well lets just say I had trouble keeping things neat. Though as we got to know each other, both informally and socially constructed activities we started to get to know each other and found things to bond over such as Frisbee golf (frolf). If it was a warm sunny day and most of the homework was done, or even if it wasn't, we would go shoot a round. This is where we learned the most the quickest about each other because it was either talk or be in awkward silence.

It is because of him that I am where I am now in my faith. He has no idea how many times he has helped correct me or prevent me from going further away from where I needed to be. I opened up my newly bought Bible and just opened it to start to break it in and the first page it opened to had Psalm 133 on it.

"Behold, how good and pleasant it is when brothers dwell in unity! It is like the precious oil on the head, running down on the beard, on the beard of Aaron, running down on the collar of his robes! It is like the dew of Hermon, which falls on the mountains of Zion! For there the LORD has commanded the blessing, life forevermore. (ESV)"

 It truly is good and pleasant to dwell in unity with brothers in Christ. Those time on the frolf course where some of the best times I can remember. From talking about life, to watching and thinking about our crazy celebrations over the luckiest of shots. I owe so much to this brother and only hope to be able to give not only back to him but to others as well. His fiancee is one lucky lady. Love you bro!

Today is Enough (Matthew 6)

Today stars the busiest week of my life. Busier than college soccer two-a-days, busier than a weekend soccer tournament, and yes even busier than any college finals week I have ever had (and I have had some crazy ones).
I am working over 50 hours this week as well as trying to focus on and do well in all of my schoolwork for the week and trying to squeeze in sleep wherever possible. I do not bring this up to brag about what a harder-worker I am nor using it to complain and say 'whoa is me'. It is just a fact I am facing.  Having such a busy week I have constantly been going over my week: when I work and at what job (of the 3 I have), what assisgnments I have to do this week for school, when those are due, and thinking about needing to work ahead on future assignments due soon such as research papers. This is currently the case as I have been at work several hours with nothing to do really but think, and hope more people come in the store. Standing fixing shoe laces Matthew 6: 34 came into my mind...

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

Thinking about this passage and thinking back over my last few hours and days of dreading this week the main thing that comes to mind is "DUH!". Each day this week has its own struggles and problems, so why do I need to make things even harder on myself by not staying in the moment? GOD, not myself, will be the one to get me through each day this week and the week as a whole and surely I will learn greatly from it.

What events in the near or long term future are constantly weighing on your mind? Know that God is there for you and supporting you in these tough times, even if it doesn't seem so.


I was here live for this concert and was truly an amazing experience. Jeremy has an amazing story!